Treiss ([info]treiss) wrote,
@ 2005-04-22 03:09:00
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Current mood: envious

It fucking sucks to only be half of who you are and supress the rest because you know that if you're yourself, every good thing in your life will suddenly cease to be good.. and you'll be back where you left off. It sucks even more when you're surrounded by people who are being who they want to be... surrounded by people who are being themselves without restraint.

I hate life. e.e


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[info]xinakie
2005-04-22 01:30 pm UTC (link)
If you can't fully be yourself, without everything crashing down.. Then perhaps everything isn't truely good? Though just fakely, aslong as you aren't yourself?

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[info]treiss
2005-04-22 05:37 pm UTC (link)
Maybe. =/ But that's an insanely depressing thought.

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[info]xinakie
2005-04-22 05:48 pm UTC (link)
It maybe depression, though isn't the thought that you're not being true to you even more depressing? It's like hiding behind a halloween mask all year round, when all you wish to do is take off that mask.

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[info]treiss
2005-04-22 06:40 pm UTC (link)
I suppose. But being true to myself isn't something I really want, no matter how much at times it seems like I can't control it... I want that part of me to go away.

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[info]xinakie
2005-04-22 10:26 pm UTC (link)
Then it wouldn't be denying your true self. It'd be trying to change yourself to be a better person/someone you want to be.

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[info]treiss
2005-04-23 12:33 am UTC (link)
It's a bit more complicated than that. =/

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[info]xinakie
2005-04-23 09:12 pm UTC (link)
Explain?

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[info]treiss
2005-04-25 04:41 am UTC (link)
Kinda hard to. >.

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