Current mood:

indescribable

HM.
You ever notice that just when the shit hits the fan, most of the people you THOUGHT you could lean on suddenly just disappear? The people who say, oh, you're one of my best friends, oh, you're so close to me... bull fucking shit, you haven't been the least fucking bit supportive. In fact you've grown DISTANT. Or when I bother to say anything they just go silent or wtfever, or go fucking invisible. Well fucking done, you assmunching fucktards. Well fucking done. If you know me so goddamn well you'd think you'd bother when you find out something is wrong because the past fucking three days I have NOT been myself. If you fucking bothered to take an interest anymore then that would be evident. I don't fucking crave attention, I just wish those that claim they're so incredibly close to me, bothered to fucking try instead of just ignoring me and then leaving something somwhere you know I'm bound to see it. That just fucking hurts. And I'm sick of this shit of finding out who my real friends really are. Sarah, Josh, Minnie, Dawne, Eric and Liam, and a few other people, they've fucking been supportive in so many ways you couldn't imagine. I can't really talk to Ben since hey, half the time he's the SOURCE of the pain whether he knows it or not, but at least I know I still have a few people to lean back on.

So just fuck you, if you're so goddamn good off and can bother to ignore and then blatantly backstab someone who is apparently one of your best friends. Fuck you and the horse you rode in on, and I hope you have a nice fucking life, you bitchy asswhoring cunt.

And this isn't to anyone in particular, just to several people who've recently showed their true colors.